In The End it Reflects.

The hard rain falls down in a glass blow. I wish it had hit harder into my skin and left cuts. I wish it made me realize how much I deserve it for being so fuckin careless. Why would I even say that? Why would I do this? I should of been there. I shouldn't of left mad. I could at least feel something. I wish I was more sympathetic. But no what do I do?? Care more of what I have to do. What it is I have to do to help her. The one person in my life that fuckin would do anything for me. Die for me. But I can't do one fuckin favor for her. I can't even be by her bedside and caress her arm saying its ok. I love you, i'm here. Why would I do this to her?? There was nothing I could do... But be there for her. But be there to help her. To let her know I love her. To let her know everything is ok. She's ok.... She said she's ok and she can do it. But yet I have to fuckin listen to her cry on the other end. Just not giving a shit rather than I don't want to leave what I'm doing right now. No one is as cold hearted as i am right now........ She would have been there for me in a second...... But I'm at a god damn store laughing not caring... I didn't know mama. I'm sorry... I will make up all the shit I've put you through. I will make it up to you. Cause I LOVE YOU AND YOU DESERVE SO MUCH BETTER than what I have given you.... You've been to hell and back. You've been through all the pain in the world, and I still let it drag on to you cause I'm a brat. I'm sorry I'm so sorry. I promise I PROMISE I WILL MAKE IT UP TO YOU. I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU.


White Tara, Compassion & Protection.