It's Hard

Well today I said goodbye to my father for a while. I hated it. I hate saying goodbye to him. I always feel like its the last time im gonna see him. I hate myself for thinking that. But if I lost my father my world would end. I don't think I would ever be myself ever again. The pain would be the worst in the world. I hope he never leaves me, but that will never happen. But I gotta make the most of it while he is here. I gotta take it for all it is and make it the best time ever. I love him and I'm so happy I get to see him sooner rather than later. Love you pa and I will see you soon! YAY!