If I Could I Would.

If I could take everything back I would. If I could say sorry I just might. I don't know whats loitering inside of me. I don't know whats going on inside my head. If I could serve it on a plate I would. My dreams are getting grotesque. My dreams are becoming more of nightmares. I wish I could face myself. I wish I could stand on top of the world and change all of it. I wish I could bite my tongue. I wish I could cut off my fingers and end all of my words and weapons. Talking shit and eating it as well. I take all of you for granted and I take myself for granted as well. I take my whole life and just ball it up and throw it all away. Like as if I am nothing and my surroundings aren't good enough. If I could change my ways I would..... But I can't find it in myself to change it. I'm naive and stubborn. My ego is starting to begin, and I never thought I had one. How did it create? I'm just in a place where I'm stuck, and feel since I've seen more then some of these rats I know more.... But what do I know?? I'm naive again and again. One day I will change, bite my tongue, and think it all over. I wish that growing up didn't come so fast. I wish I could stop time and enjoy everything while I can. Walk a million miles to see the sun rise above the world. watch the men and women frozen in time. If I could I would love myself and you. Oh how I wish I could.